December 2011
2 posts
“I don’t just want your heart. I want your flesh, your skin and blood and...”
– Isobel Thrilling
November 2011
2 posts
English is so bad at describing what it means to grieve. For example, there should be a word for when you miss someone so incredibly, achingly much, that this person pervades every thought, every interaction, every waking moment, but you also loathe them. Because they treated you badly, or because they were too weak to be honest with you. Because you were betrayed. And because you loathe them,...
There are dark places I try not to see because I have been there before and it is not always easy to leave. There are these stars I see sometimes and wonder what they are thinking when they are patiently staring back at me. How many wars have they seen? How many gods and kings, how many nameless feelings, how many people have they watched fall to their knees hoping for a sign that these lights...
October 2011
4 posts
“Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that’s what...”
It’s time to let go. I know, it’s scary right? I am about to let go as well, so let’s just do it together and maybe the whole process will be easier on us both. No, no, you can’t stay, it really is time to walk away. What I am trying to say is that whatever you are holding on to is holding you back, and it has come to the point where you can’t hold on any longer. You have to start understanding...
“I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my...”
– Dirty Dancing
2 tags
August 2011
4 posts
It’s like all I am ever doing is reiterating the feelings that should have ended years ago, but I have kept them because I do not know how to let them go.
Even when you know the way it’s going to blow, it’s hard to get around the wind.
The most beautiful people I know are beautiful because of the things they say, the things they do, and the things they believe.
July 2011
2 posts
1 tag
June 2011
5 posts
“Date a girl who doesn’t read. Find her in the weary squalor of a...”
– Charles Warnke
“We are all travelers in the wilderness of the world. We find ourselves when we...”
“Dam its going to be so hard to leave. Shit I don’t even want to think...”
– A good friend, that I love and appreciate.
1 tag
Everything feels like it is overflowing, as if I’m chasing after the things that fill up each day and I can’t keep up with it all. I keep finding myself in random moments and losing myself in the mess of living uncontrollably, helplessly. I smile even when I feel out of place and just listen to people talk because I have nothing to say and I don’t believe in small talk.
May 2011
4 posts
Miami
For a while now I have been trying to sift through all the thoughts about this and come to some very simple conclusion as to why I feel like I am done here. I realize that I have never been very good at goodbyes. I think it is because I have never really liked the idea of finalizing much of anything. I sort of just like to meander with ideas and hide them in places where I can find later when I am...
Humanity
The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most about humanity, he said: “Man. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies...
“But I think, personally, that it would be worse to have been alone all that...”
– Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby
April 2011
3 posts
When they ask us what we’re doing, you can say, “We’re remembering.”
Sometimes I find myself alone, wondering if this is the right road for me. Maybe it’s not, but maybe that’s okay.
There is not a moment
the colors of you don’t swim
inside of my thoughts.
March 2011
2 posts
tylerknott:
I wish there was a vitamin a pill of sorts that would always make me feel how I feel when my head finds your chest and my ears pick up the sound of your fluttering heart.
“My favorite thing about you, and please don’t get me wrong, is how natural it...”
February 2011
2 posts
There are nights I look up to the sky just to watch it there, bare and boneless. Sometimes it fills me with purpose knowing that something so empty and passive could be so beautiful and grand.
“We don’t really need to find reason because out the same door that it came...”
– Jack Johnson
January 2011
4 posts
I love you in the dark the same way I love you in the light, and there are times when I can’t be sure if I could say the same for you.
Today my leadership professor said, “People that can’t forgive can’t be happy.” I’m beginning to catch his drift.
I know that these god damn knots will never reach
Sometimes I stay up late at night making knots on strings. I make one knot for you and another knot for me. People do the strangest things when they’re lonely. There will always be these great gaps between us.
One day I will find the right words and they will be simple.
December 2010
2 posts
I feel so lonely tonight.
“Like a mantra in a foreign language, one you love the sound of but don’t...”
November 2010
1 post
You’re lucky that even the slightest memory of you remains.
October 2010
2 posts
But fuck you anyways
In your eyes,
The light goes on for miles.
You tap into me.
You bring out the best in me.
My inner beauty, my delight.
You complete me, accentuate my eccentricities.
You’ve woken up the passion I though I had lost.
I want to grow old with you in my arms…
But fuck you anyways.
There is something dangerous about a person who reminds you of yourself. We crushed the night’s bones between our palms, touching, saying “fuck it,” and my dress hung wet and cold above the shore with my ankles shaking right next to yours when you told me, “I think that if you touched me right now you could feel my nightmares.”
September 2010
3 posts
A Little Inch of Something
When there is an emotional exchange but there is no sexual exchange, you believe you have nothing.
When there is more of a sexual exchange than an emotional exchange, you really do have nothing.
“El mundo dara muchas vueltas, pero siempre terminare mis días en tus brazos.”
– Francis Rodriguez
August 2010
3 posts
“It rained all night the day I left.”
– Something beautiful my literature professor introduced us to today.
“I stand here ironing, and what you asked me moves tormented back and forth with...”
– Tillie Olsen
“The sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light of meaning in the...”
– Carl Jung
July 2010
2 posts
Look at them
I want that.
June 2010
7 posts
I have seen so many painted skies that cannot compare to your ocean eyes.
